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20th May 2012

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You’re Not Alone (James, Kendall, Carlos, and Logan)

big-time-obsessed:

In honor of this blog finally reaching it’s one thousandth post, I decided to write a FanFic that is unlike my other ones. Unlike the other FF’s, this one is longer, involves every one of the guys, and is on a much more serious topic. 

I personally never went through anything depicted in this, but a very close friend of mine did a few years ago which is why writing this meant so much to me. 

A warning before you begin reading, if you do or have struggled with an eating disorder or self harm, I would caution you about reading this. The last thing I intend to do by writing/posting this is to make anyone relapse. 

Finally, if any of you ever feel like you’re alone or no one likes you or no one understands or just want someone to talk to, please feel free to message me, anon or not, and I promise I’ll do whatever I can to help you or give you advice, anything. I love each and every one of you :)

Now, without further ado, in all of its 3,841 words and 8 paged long glory, I present to you, Big-Time-Obsessed’s one thousandth post, You’re Not Alone.

— xoxo, SC

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1st January 2012

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what the hell…

why is it that everyone I know is getting married or engaged? am I that boring, unattractive and unlovable? hasn’t it occurred to anyone that maybe I want to experience those feelings of being in a relationship too?

ughhh! I hate this feeling! I’ve dealt with it for so long trying to say, ‘oh, I’m content with being single.’ when in reality, I’m not content with it. It sucks when you have to listen to every single person talk about their first date, first kiss, how their boyfriend proposed and so forth, when you haven’t ever had a first date, a guy interested in you, or whatever.

I don’t want to end up alone, never having experienced any of it. it’s heartbreaking. I don’t want to dream about a first date, a first kiss, a proposal, a wedding or having a family. I actually want to have it!!

I’m done trying to hide how i really feel about relationships anymore. I don’t want people to tell me, ‘God has someone extra special for you. just be patient.’ I’m done being patient. I’m done shying away and covering up how I feel about never having experienced a relationship!